popping out the confetti, noise-makers,
cracking open a cold one for later;
seeing what's old, while looking for new
- friends gather together and waiting for you;
watching each other grow better and whether
the weather holds out, you're later than ever;
take time to watch tonight as the sun goes away
behind the horizon, beyond the next day;
playing hard-to-get with the wine in your veins,
acting all passive past the point of champagne;
cozying up to the ones that we lean on and love
while others seek comfort in friendship and above;
yet this is the moment we look back and remember
in the expanse of an hour, we see a whole year;
the struggles, the laughter, a past we hold together
- the future is always different, so lets bring it in with cheer.
(i don't know what this is i just started to write...)
Have a safe new year's, you wonderful people and until next time: keep being cool, and doin what you do~
С' новым годом!
(If I'm spelling that right, I'm v glad)
I'm happy to shoo away a year that started off okay but got pretty bad towards the end and still had its good moments, but now it's kind of like.... Meh?
2016 should be a better year, or at the very least, something a bit more interesting. Tbh for me personally, 2016 marks the start of.. Growth. After 2016 I'll become a lot older than I can imagine myself being, and even the fact that I'm gonna turn 17 this year just.. Idk, it fills me with awe and horror. 16-17 was the age I wanted to make my OCs when I was like 14, but I hesitated because the more I thought about it the more occasionally I'd start wondering if my thinking abilities were complex and developed enough to understand how a 16 year old or 17 year old would think, and it felt like people that are around the end of their teen years were really.. Old.
Now it's just.. Weird. It probably shouldn't seem that old to me anymore, but thinking about it just feels really strange.
And at the same time, I feel like I'm changing as a person and changing in how I view myself as a person and.. I kinda thought I knew where I was going and how my thoughts could develop? Like maybe I'd become more cynical, angry, and combatant about things. But instead I feel like over time I've become a lot more.. Quiet?
It's so inexplicable, how the world around me seems to shift, and I feel probably more dizzy and meek than ever before.
So maybe, 2016 will be a year when I start to define myself a lot more? ...erm, is it really necessary for someone who likes to think about/talk about/ dissect themselves as much as me, though? I mean tbh I'm probably self-aware to the point of dizzying already; trying to "define" myself even more might be kind of excessive.
And then again? The year has barely started. Forget assessing what the year means to me when we've barely even started the year.
Even so- again -happy New Years!
❁❀ eтerηαl rιvαlѕ ωιтн Iɴĸy!!! ❀❁ and in it to win it